| | haha i read my last post and remembered what happened b/c of my
stubbornness. and lets just call me the luckiest idiot in the world.
i never thought this would become me, but i learned this over summer:
don't cheat. its not pretty. i'm sure lilly understands what i'm
talking about.
*oh btw, i love lilly! goshers. she's helped me soooo much. eeek!
i owe her!! even if she and i don't talk in 10 years, she WILL be a
bridesmaid. seriously i love her to death! no, i love her passed death.
when we're standing at the pearly gates, and we're asked why we died,
she and drewman and i will just look at eachother and laugh, as we drop
down to hell heheheh :D (in a good way)*
well. finals just finished, *eeek*
well i know i'm getting into college haha that's the important thing :D
and everyday i remember how much i love and miss my nadi wadi. like seriously. I MISS YOU NADI!
i haven't been thinking about carlton lately, so i guess that ... good?
haha, i mean, i love him! and i miss him. that stupid best friend of
mine, but i havent really been thinking of him as Bud *if ya get my
drift* so... high five irma! :D i just see his pcture and think, where
is that foo? i miss him!
that leads me to answering a question another best friend of mine
posed. I do understand how deep, how penetrated i am to you. how life
cannot exist, how death is ecstasy compared to this torture, how those
suicide attempts seem worthless because they areonly attempts. and
every day stuck in denial is only so you those attempts stay as
attempts. how the rejection is painful but its worth hearing and
feeling, because it is atleast communication.
you have communication dear. be happy about that.
well, off to not such a sad note. haha. you know that feeling of just
YAY! of a hug and going aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh and letting out all of
this happy. well that's what i get every single time. and gosh darnit,
its worth everything! :D i can't explain it any better.
so tomorrow is another speech contest. the dude taht i faced against
the past 3 years in American Legions beat me again, no biggy, i knew he
was gonna win, i'll just take my money and smile :)
well yes, i'm not really prepared but its not as crazy as American
Legion, so i think im good. i actually prepared for this one a little
bit. but yeahhh
one thing does bother me though: comedysportz
no one cares. i think its sad when your own cousin won't make the dang
posters. when my own team doesn't show up to practice *just a few
individuals, but these guys are veterans*, when 3 of us bring 4 people
to the game, and everyone else doesnt and then bitches to me or ms. j
or kristie or drew that i'm not doing my job *i'm sorry, maybe ill get
handcuffs so they DO go to the game*. when people don't pitch in one
little dollar to get some decorations for our games and then complain
that they look plain and stupid *i'm not gonna spend all of MY money
(mellers' money)* or when people have to leave practice early or can't
come cuz of work and then complain that EYE didn't tell them what
happened *ask, why should i remember if you're there, yes its on the
attendence, but EYE was there, OTHERS were there, its not MY job to
babysit you, any other teacher or coach will tell you the same* i just
hate how people complain that this isnt awesome, when thye don't grab
the oppurtunities to make it awesome.
and another thing: when friends just don't come to support. i think
that one sucks almost the most. cuz... sure vics will come and maybe my
mom or dad, but like... you're not doing anything and you know whats
going on, and its comedysportz, EVERYONE enjoys themselves, not to be
hyping it up cuz im manager or anything, because it REALLY is fun! and
funny! and entertaining! and plain good family fun. we're the only club
that asksfor a few dollars to make you laugh nonstop for 2 hours, it
seriously doesn't get any better than that. *sorry for my rant, but
yesh*
alrighty.
oh, buy valentine's day grams from me :D woo woo!! maybe my choir will
drop by 6th period and sing to you!! :D hehehe, i like the songs we're
singing they are... F.U.N.! hahahahhahaha *groaner foul*
i need to find more ways to show vics how much i love him. :D i loved
my last idea. but it didnt work out as planned :( but all the hearts
are still scattered in his car, now it jus tlooks like a mess hahaha :D
well, i think i know what i'm doing for valentine's day. hehehe, i was
working on it earlier, its gonna take some time, but it'll do. it'll
do. :D
alrighty. conan grew a beard, but i havent been watching, so he shaved it off :( he looked HOTTTTTTTTTT :D
k.
nothing to really complain about. i guess im still on my high from
seeing vics a few hours ago. goshers i don't know what the boy does,
but he hug his arm in the car and somehow the world has a smile on.
seriously... i think he's a magician. :D
kkkk adidas folks!
-$$$$
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