wow.. i never updated over summer... so much happened over summer... hhahaha

i don't want to lose him.

i wnat to have him.

self control i guess. cuz its not worth it.

don't leave the one you love for the one you like, cuz the one you like will leave you for the one you love... but what if the one you like is in love with you too?

w/e.

tonight is closing night of the play. no sign of carlton, and i haven't cared. simply because he doesn't care. i know he's grounded... but that excuse is pretty damn old, so whatever. nadia said she would try, probably won't happen, but she lives in riverside and doesn't have a car. so she's okay.

yup, in choir... everyone says my singing has improved... im just sad cuz byebye birdie is the spring musical... my senior year... i won't get a part because of my damn voice... i'll PROMISE ms. j that i will work my hardest with any song as long as i get a good role... cuz theater does mean alot. its my stress reliever... thats why im soo looking for to the play tonight and always to rehearsals and the cast party. but im sure the cast party will be filled with mixed emotions because of me adn my darn emotional stubborness.

i need to straighten my hair now...

why am i a hot guy, but not a hot girl? :(

:)

gooday dear xanganians... til next time, probably in a few months when i talk about how i've resolved my currect problem and will openly discuss it.

which reminds me: btw. summer dealt with vics and brett. love triangles aren't fun. especially when you have 'everything" you want,... but it just doesnt feel right...

if thats true, then why am i such an idiot?

-butterfly/irmamo